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Lou
01 October 2013 @ 08:25 pm
meu lápis escorregou :~
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Singing along to: dire straits - expresso love
 
 
Lou
07 June 2013 @ 12:21 am
old wip (late 2012~early 2013)

(isso tá virando um banco de dados das minhas falhas peripécias artísticas.)
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Singing along to: debussy (performed by stephen malinowski) - arabesque no. 1
 
 
Lou
27 May 2013 @ 11:49 pm
still untitled, 3d-verse

the gay feels in this game are going to kill me~~

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Feeling: happy
Singing along to: daft punk - get lucky
 
 
Lou
21 May 2013 @ 11:42 pm
last change was on jan. 24th, 2011.

fuck, i like this a lot.

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Singing along to: la roux - i'm not your toy
 
 
Lou
It's been even longer than that since I've last written something (other than really short tweets) about my life.

The utter state of apathy my life runs in at the moment is comforting, actually. The eternal bus engine's humming rocks me gently to sleep - and that, besides going to class and studying until my brain fries, is about all I do.

I've gotten older, settled down, got a sane boyfriend (that I hope will keep me for a long time), stopped drinking, stopped smoking, stopped using drugs. It didn't make my life better, just boring. And boring's good, I guess.

I rarely see or talk to my friends, I don't even have time to eat properly and my immunologic system is completely wrecked. It's not like I've ever taken good care of my health either, so it's ok. I don't like the idea of looking for new tv shows so I watch the same ones over and over again. I had a huge spending spree and got myself a (incredibly pink!) 3ds and some games.

It's kind of sad that all I managed to accomplish in these 2 years was the ability to function.

But mostly, what makes me devastated is the fact that I open a blank notebook and nothing comes to me. I have nothing I want to or know how to write about. I keep up with my fandoms, and that's about it. Nothing really inspires me or inebriates me to the point of raw creation.

In the end I guess that's because I gave all my dreams up.
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Singing along to: mouse on the keys - spectres de mouse
 
 
 
Lou
16 December 2011 @ 04:06 am
Fandom: Bleach
Characters: Ichigo, Rukia, ichiruki-ish
Disclaimer/warnings: Bleach belongs to Kubo.
 
And she can hear Ichigo's voice ranting at her, telling her it's, really, just wind.Collapse )
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Singing along to: The Subways - I Wanna Hear What You Have Got To Say
 
 
Lou
And so you suddenly wake up and it's two years later and you find yourself standing in a poorly-maintained classroom, dreading what you chose to do for a living.

You wake up and you realise you've done nothing but complain and be depressed and play videogames and play the piano and consume and insane amount of cigarettes and alcohol. But then again, you're young and that's what young people do.

All you want to do is scream about how it is all unfair and how you've just lost two years of your life and how you can't stand listening to Clarice Lispector's stories or to Drummond's poems anymore, and how you can't stand Beethoven and that Bach is a fucking asshole (that fingering is fucked, man!).

And you know in two years time you'll be at the same (but still not the same) place, still complaining about the same and different stuff and how time slowly consumes you and then you realise you're 30 and you can't change a damn thing.

I hate this shit so fucking much.
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Singing along to: Aerosmith - Mama Kin
 
 
Lou
03 November 2011 @ 01:04 am

Fandom: Bleach

Pairing: Ichigo/Rukia, ichiruki

Disclaimer/warnings: Bleach is not mine. It belongs to Kubo Tite. 

These are three different (related or unrelated) takes on Ichigo's life after Rukia left.

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Eating cookies in: chair
Singing along to: Adele - Someone Like You
 
 
Lou
04 July 2010 @ 01:48 pm
Title: Of Clocks, Cigarettes and Alcohol
Genre: Angst
Characters/Pairings: Sanzo/Goku, 39.
Rating: R/NC-17
Summary: And silence told him everything there was to know.

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Eating cookies in: chair
Singing along to: Pink Floyd - Lost for Words
 
 
Lou
09 July 2009 @ 09:12 pm
Title: Broken Halo
Genre: Angst
Characters/Pairings: Ryuu/Hitomi (Hydra)
Rating: R/NC-17
Summary: Ryuu's denial has struck him hard.



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Eating cookies in: chair
Singing along to: Depeche Mode - Wrong